[Unlike Rey, Kylo no longer thinks of what he shouldn’t indulge in. He knows now that this is what she wants, for all she might say otherwise. The primal sort of desire that he feeds her, the sort that borders on unhealthy obsession — he leans into it, his grip tightening on her chest when she reaches to pull at his neck. He bows his head to make it easier for her, burying his teeth into her shoulder without finishing the bite. It is meant only to remind her that he presently holds her to his whim.
After she’s found her grip and beins arching into his hand, he allows it to roam more freely, sweeping his large hand across her collar bone to leave behind a trail of soap. When he reaches the opposite shoulder, he curls his hand around it and holds purchase there, releasing the hold of his teeth to instead press his lips to her ear. His other hand moves lower, massaging over the tops of her thighs as far as he can reach without needing to kneel. His hand slides a bit easier as the fluids mix with soap, and he feels a familiar heat creeping into his bloodstream. He doesn’t bother to verbally communicate this time; in addition to the heavy presence at her back, the Force might weigh heavily on her mind.
He is listening, studying what works and what does not in between what his own instincts tell him to do. Back in Drakstaden, he had thought he had ample opportunity to learn the curves of her body, but having her pressed to him like this quickly shows him that he hadn’t really known much of anything.]
[ The soap turns his touch slippery, gliding over her skin in a way that's both enticing in its smoothness and frustrating in how it denies him purchase in her skin. He doesn't seem to mind. Instead he digs his teeth into her shoulder, eliciting a whole body twitch as her cunt clenches around emptiness. It feels like he should still be there. Her hips are aching and separated as though to make room for him still, and her cunt is stretched still for his presence, but he's not there.
This teasing shines a light on how empty she feels without him there, but the bond is dilating, widened by the way they burrow into one another, and she knows that he feels it too. Of course he does. He always has.
Caught in the circle of his arms, she feels surrounded. Enveloped in the heat of his body, the glide of his skin. He's solid and real and here. After a lifetime surviving without touch, it's almost too much stimulation at once, to feel his hands mapping her with him so solidly pressed to her back. But if it is, she'll suffer happily.
Eager noises punctuate the path he blazes across her collarbone, and her head tilts, exposing her neck, making room for his mouth at her ear. She feels useless, pinned to him like this, so her hand tightens in his hair, grabbing a fistful that pulls harder for how damp and clumped together it is. It affords her the illusion of control, which she undermines entirely with a squirming, desperate rasp: ] More.
[ When his fingers find her thighs, her knees part wider, beckoning him in with some futility. She hazards a glance down. There's an acute sense of loss as the soap washes away the traces of him from inside her thighs, and she whimpers. Her hips buck back against his, seeking reassurance in the heavy warm that presses into her. It's a modest comfort, which she rocks back against. But given the slow exploration his hands trace, taking their time in stimulating her without satisfying that electric prickle that maps her skin, she spots a way to take something for herself.
The hand she keeps on his hip slides down between them and gropes for the weight of his burgeoning erection. He's not as hard as she's felt him before. But he's reacting to her, and she can feel it. She presses him between the cleft of her ass, giving him room to swell against the curve of her pelvis along her folds. ]
[His hand ventures just a bit higher to grip around her throat, though he does not squeeze until she buries her fingers in her hair, and reaches for his cock. His grip clamps, brief but strong as he weighs whether or not to stop what he's doing as a result of it. His voice vibrates against her ear when she pulls him in between her ass.
Last he checked, they were supposed to be washing the mess off, not creating more. And that thought slips between them with some amusement behind it. He was not prepared to deny himself the pleasure he'd felt not so long ago, and so the refusal to engage does not stick.
As the soap sticks to Rey's legs, his hand ventures higher to slip between folds of skin, seeking out the small bundle of nerves that she had guided him toward earlier. He is quicker to find it this time, spreading his fingers to expose her to the cold air before slipping one of them inside of her.
But he pauses before getting too aggressive with her, the sound of More echoing in his ears, instead pushing his hips forward to trap her hand between them. Boldness rises in his tone.]
[ Any amusement his thought about how counterproductive this all is gets swallowed up in the sharp inhale as his fingers close around her throat. Every nerve in her body comes alive while her lungs tighten. But her airway isn't cut off. Not really. Just squeezed, and only for a moment. When it loosens again, she releases a rasping breath, half-sputtered.
On its heels comes a whimper as his fingers find her cunt. The way he spreads her open prickles her anticipation just like the hand at her throat. His touch is so close to satisfying that sensitivity, but the brush of his fingertips across her sensitive flesh is too short-lived, and his single digit too thin after she had just had so much more. She's soaked on the inside, slick still with his cum where the water couldn't wash it away, and his finger slides right in.
She seethes out a grateful moan.
Like before, it's a steep escalation. But only in the moment. All sorts of explosions can look sudden if one ignores the fuse that has been burning. She releases his hair, slaps her open palm against the wall of the shower with a heavy thud. Every breath scrapes out of her lungs, heaving her chest.
Hearing his voice so low and controlled in her ear makes her shudder, but she can't parse what he's reaching for. She flutters around him, aching for fulfillment but groping blindly to convince him to give it to her.
He already knows, she can feel it. He's found his way there on his own this time. She tries to pull her hand back, to show him, but it's trapped between their bodies. He must want to hear her ask for it then. Ask for it from him. That solidifies his need for control, crystalizes it in her mind. She's not too proud to give it to him, not when he's showing her how badly he wants her. ]
More, please. [ Her hips rock into his hand — or strain to, anyway. His grip makes it hard, keeps her steadfast against him. ] I want to come.
[He feels the easy way his finger slips inside of her, and purposefully curls it until he feels resistance.]
How?
[That question is less sure, less demanding, but no less intimate in how it is pressed into her ear. This is uncharted territory for him -- the dirty talk, the vocalization of any sort of vulnerability in his desire to please her how she wants to be pleased. He can track easily enough what she wants through the Force and through the way she struggles to rock across his finger, but seeking affirmation is all he really knows how to do.]
Tell me how you want me to do it.
[She's still holding him, in spite of being trapped between their bodies. He shifts just enough to bury himself to hilt in her hand, the muscles of his abs rocking against her spine. He's easily swelled in her hand. The question of whether or not she wants him isn't there -- just which way would be the best way. He's almost sure that he might come just from the act of pushing her over again.]
[ He ruts up into her hand as if to remind her. He's properly hard in her grip now, thick and rigid. The water that streams down between them smooths her hand's movement against his skin as she squeezes him in turn.
She'd thought his aggression was the mark of pure, unadulterated desire, that it showed more than anything else could how ardently he wanted her. She'd been wrong. This is something far better.
Whatever appeal his forceful overtaking of her had held, it's nothing next to this offer. It repositions everything for her to hear him so earnestly offer her what she needs — it's softer than trying to possess her. It's trying to drink her down and learn her and satisfy her. She's never valued herself highly enough to hope for that kind of attention, and she hardly knows what to do with it.
The water is warm, nearly scorching, but Rey shivers all the same. ]
I want you inside of me. [ She licks her lips, rocking her hips back against him in both indication and encouragement. ] Your … [ She doesn't know how to ask for it. Has never had to use the words before, and they feel as foreign and filthy on her tongue as Huttese. ] Your cock belongs in me. Use your fingers while I take it.
[ Now that it's out there, she braces for some kind of negative reaction. But it's just the truth. And she's aching for it. If she puts any real thought towards it, she's not actually afraid of him refusing her or scorning her — after all, he'd been the one to ask, to express that earnest need to satisfy. But she does feel vulnerable, but ultimately it's only fair to give him that in kind. ]
[Knowledge in hand, Kylo reverts back to his instincts and retakes control. He pulls his hips back as he removes his finger from inside of her to instead move to his cock, brushing her hand aside. He continues to hold her tight at her shoulder while he shifts to position himself. The angle is different now that he is behind her rather than in front of her -- its easier, and feels more natural.
He makes mental note of that.
It only takes a moment to feel himself press against her cunt, slick, stretched and ready for him. This time, he is not gentle in how he drives himself upward, a slick thrust that comes with a satisfied sound slipping through his teeth. It takes effort to hold his balance on the slick floor while he moves, but he is strong enough to keep his balance in spite of that.
One hand wanders back to her breasts, squeezing the flesh and rolling her nipple between his fingers. The other hand between her legs again. Its harder to find the nub of flesh that he knows is there with his large fingers when they are tied like this, but he makes the effort as asked. All the while, he stays buried deep within her, rocking her back and forth across him, searching for her.
Distantly, some part of him recognizes that he is over stimulated. The urge to satisfy her is there, but becoming more distant in comparison to the urge to satisfy himself. He suppresses it by ducking his head again to sink his teeth into her neck -- perhaps a touch too hard.]
[ She gapes, a guttural noise croaking out of the back of her throat as he drives in on that first thrust. Even ready for him, even begging for it, she isn't expecting how much there is of him. Her hand, dismissed, moves to help brace her on the wall, and she bends into it slightly to arch her spine and rock back into him. It gives her leverage, helps her stay upright as he starts to move.
The fit is different. This seems like it should have been obvious, but Rey had taken their first time to mean that they understood how this worked. But the new angle presses his length into her in different places, a wonder given that she'd thought he had stretched and filled and touched every part of her. This discovery only makes her hungry, eager to find new ways to experience him.
But that's for another time. She's ahead of herself.
It's a terrible waste of water. Even now the little girl inside of her is howling as it cascades over their joined bodies, hot and soothing. But she can't care. Next to this, it's nothing, and no one in this facility is wanting like she had been on Jakku.
Each movement is slight at first, a rocking of hips, sans thrusting. She doesn't want to disrupt his efforts to relocate the spot he's looking for, and the pleasant distraction of his palm kneading at her breast keeps her stimulated and distracted well enough. Her whole body's alive with it.
But after a moment's fumbling, Rey can't take the pause anymore. She's too revved up. She reaches down and helps push his fingers to the right place, pressing vigorously and twitching at how that firmness rides so close to the borderline of too much while his cock's spreading her open like this.
A shuddering breath comes out, a shiver crawls up her back and through her shoulders. ]
Move. [ Her voice barely sounds like her own, husky and low and full of desire. ] Please. I need it. [ Needs him. More than she's ever needed anything in her life. She'd thought this exposed his desire for her, the lengths of it, how uncontrolled it was, but now she's the one desperate and pleading and she has to wonder. ]
[For not the first time, Kylo and Rey seem to be in agreement. This whole adventure of him trying to stay where he is while he's trying to focus on using his fingers isn't working -- for her or for him. Even when he feels that shiver run up her spine, it only scratches the surface.
So he grumbles with some frustration, and comes to the conclusion that Rey eventually arrives at herself: he needs to move, and he needs to do it without worrying about either of them slipping.
So, he pulls his hands away entirely to grab for her wrists in order to redirect them to the towel bar in front of her -- at least, that is what he imagines that it is for. Maybe later, he will make note that, given the purpose of this facility, it is likely intended for the purposes for which they are about to use it. He places her hands there and forcefully closes his hands over her fingers to imply that she should find her grip there. Once she complies, his hands fall back to her hips.
And then, after angling her some, he is moving again -- faster, this time. He thrusts forward the same time he pulls her backwards, and its enough to get him groaning again. His breathing becomes audible, a heavy pant that suggests he's putting quite a lot of energy into the simple act of pulling her as close to him as she can possibly get.
He finds a quick rhythm and shifts his grip to the front of her thighs, to keep her spread for him and allow him potential access to her clit again. He hasn't quite figured out how to get that far (or if he even needs to -- that's a question that's too deep for him to even begin to ask when he's in the middle of driving into her like he is), but so long as he thinks to have the option...maybe that will be enough.]
You need me.
[Its a correction that comes after he's been thrusting for a bit, no doubt stuck on the vocabulary she chose.]
She'd said it to him the night before. It occurs to her to say it now because Force knows she needs to hear it. But maybe not as much as he does. He's the one who came back to her, after all. He'd proven it in the compromises that he'd made, in saving Poe's life, and — yes — in the way he raws her like a karking animal.
A groan spills past her lips as he thrusts deep into her, the spread of her thighs welcoming him in further now that she's bowed against the bar and he's got the hold on her hips. Her feet want to slide out further, but she's already shorter than him. More to the point, she's not Veronica Lodge. She's not all flexible and yoga-skilled. That'd be a very unhappy ending to an otherwise pleasantly surprising round two. So she tries to keep her tired legs clenched and steady in spite of the slippery floor.
It keeps her grounded. Keeps her back rigid too, and that same tension pervades her body and turns her knuckles white where she grips the multipurpose bar. It's made harder by the fact that this angle gets him into just the right spot inside of her that every thrust in has her legs twitching, ready to give as warm pleasure spreads through her belly.
The shower and his thrusts have started to carry some of the slick from her body down the drain, but the faint friction isn't stopping her from bouncing back against him on each thrust.
He's right. It occurs to her as if independent of his demand. She whines, aching for that little bit of extra attention that will push her over the edge, which he seems to be denying her at the cost of this praise. ]
You.
[ She pants it out. Someone's going to hear her, loud as she is, but frankly it's the bottom of her list of concerns. ]
Only you. Always you. [ This comes easier than the filthy details. It's emotional, drawn out of her fluidly by the high. ] I need you, Ben. Please. It's so good. [ No, he didn't like that distance. She corrects in a slurred whimper. ] You feel so good.
[He lets go of her hips then, relying only on the rhythm their bodies have found together. His hands roam across her, returning to his desire to possess all of her, to feel every inch of her and make it his own. His moans are vocal, drawn out, hungry for the simple praise she offers him. His hands roam up the curve of her rigid torso, beneath her breasts to pinch and twist her nipples again.
And then, one of them strays, dragging back between her legs again. There is no trouble finding her clit this time -- the bond practically drags him there with the weight of it when he leans into that desire. Its hard for him to believe what she says, even when he confirms the lack of falsehood. But she's said it when prompted, even takes the effort to correct herself when she strays from the point.
Someone in this forsaken galaxy wants him, and she's as radiant as a star in so many different ways. She burns bright beneath him, and even though he knows he's in control here, he can't help but feel that she could halt this at any moment she chose, and she had not. She could have gone anywhere -- anyone not to take her would have been a fool, a dead fool for the moment he'd found out someone had denied her.
Its a dangerous spiral he's spinning through, and the heat in his belly grows with each thrust. His mouth opens, and he can feel it coming --
The hand on her breast flies to her neck to tilt her chin back, and he closes his mouth around her own in spite of the awkward angle. He needs it as badly as she'd needed the girth of him inside of her. And he rocks up once, powerfully, and spills within her a second time this evening.]
[ The tweaking of her nipples almost does it. She's so sensitive, so desperate, that it drags a sob out of her to get so close. Teasing movements, roaming hands, they all leave her body feeling like one thrumming raw nerve, anticipating his touch. His fingertips find the apex of her thighs, rub into her exposed clit, and she rattles apart like the Falcon trying to make the jump to hyperspace.
Her climax is a thing of keening and trembling. She loses their rhythm entirely, clinging desperately to the railing as though it were the only thing keeping her alive and rocking between his cock and his fingers seeking to both flee the suddenly overwhelming sensations and to drink down more, more, more.
She rides it out, feels heat spill inside as he crashes with her, and he twists her neck and she kisses him like she's trying to devour him. She hadn't needed to drag it from him this time with pain, she notes. It comes on the heels of her shouts of praise instead. That's when the stupid decision comes to surrender the grip of one hand on the bar and she grabs back for a fistful of his hair to hold him tight, strain to press their mouths together.
The spray from the shower gets between them. It's a sopping wet kiss, and she has to break it to let that water dribble down her chin onto her torso, but then she's back at it. In fact, now that he has come, she straightens up considerably, shoves away from the towel bar to pin him between her back and the opposite shower wall, trying to hold him in her as long as she can.
The bond expands, swells, and they melt together. She can feel him: drunk on that affection she'd heaped upon him, drunk on her. It's a feeling she recognizes. She's the same. But the request doesn't come to her as easily as it seems to have come to him. She doesn't know how to ask for it. Perhaps because for him, it'd been an order, delivered in the heat of the moment while he was bending her under his touch. She sates herself on the feeling, transferred between their connection. They don't need words. ]
[Again, he feels the adrenaline begin to bleed out of him almost immediately after his body has ceased to tremble with orgasm, but Rey smartly straightens and pins him back against the wall before he can slip free of her cunt. He's exhausted, his entire pale body is now red with heat and effort, and there is a mix of sweat that mixes with the water still trickling over them.
Blindly, he gropes for her, to hold her for the sake of it rather than to pleasure her. He clings like she is all he has, in spite of the ache he starts to feel as he begins to soften. Its hard not to wonder how they were going to go back to being anything but what they were right then. How he was expected to sleep in someone else's bed tonight, how she would wash the smell of him away (though she would be trapped with those bruises from his teeth for a few days).
He doesn't recognize what she needs from him, half exhausted and drunk on their coupling. He can barely stand, barely think, and were it not for his stubborn attitude, he'd no doubt be sleeping on the floor of the shower right then. Perhaps it was good that she hadn't had the opportunity to tug upon his hair for long, or to get creative in other ways.
Aside from...pinning him to the wall and trapping his dick inside of her, that is.]
[ His arms are solid around her, and though she aches to hug him back, she's not ready to lose their connection yet, to tug him out of her so she can turn around. So instead, she lets her hands rest securely on his forearms where they circle her middle, and she leans her head into him.
The bites on her shoulders are starting to ache, a dull thud. The sharp sting of them had felt like heaven when he'd put them there, but now she's realizing that they're bruising. For now, that dull ache only serves to facilitate the fuzzy numbness, a warm heat that drapes across her skin, lulling her into a relaxed haze with him.
Rey doesn't open her eyes until her breathing regulates, evening out from its fever pitch. She smacks her lips a little, working on huffing out the last heavy exhales. The water is miraculously still warm and the soap has been washed off of her front. Somewhere between all the fucking and leaning, probably. A light, awed huff escapes her, almost a laugh.
She feels like starlight and the sand when it's warm and the setting sun. Effulgent. She shifts once she's comfortable to look back up at him again. He's beautiful. She hadn't gotten to appreciate it this time, but he is. Red in the face and dripping wet and ragged at the edges and hers. The embrace says everything she'd wanted to hear, really. He feels the same way. ]
Alright. [ This she offers up after some time. He's practically slipping out by then despite all her best efforts by sheer virtue of a) gravity, b) shrinkage. ] If we're going to do that again, I'm going to have to eat first.
[The word again wakes him from his involuntary dozing. His eyelids flutter open, confused when he realizes that he's not actually tied to her anymore and that she's -- talking about going again, when they haven't even finished washing off everything from the first two times???
He goes to move, and his shoulders resist. They've locked up, bruised in the same manner as Rey's neck but also stiff from overuse. He mumbles a soft protest and tries to find -- some kind of grip on her before he speaks again.]
I don't -- think I can do that again.
[At least, not right now. He says it without thinking about it, until he starts thinking about it, and then he swallows down that fear of under-preforming in front of Rey. JK he's awake now.]
[ She turns around to properly face him, finds that she has to brace herself on the multipurpose railing because her thighs are stiff and yet somehow her legs still want to give out under her the minute she stops leaning some of her weight on him. Truly a new dimension to needing him. Truly.
A groan slips out of her as she raises her arms up above her head and stretches. Her back twinges with it, as do her shoulders where he's marked her, everything tugging in the opposite direction it had locked up while they were going at it. ]
Maybe you're right. [ She reaches down to touch herself, a little awed by how empty she feels and how stretched and sore she is. Her fingertips find her folds swollen and oversensitive and she winds up rubbing her heel into the thatch of hair just above as she flinches away from that contact. ] I still want to eat.
[ In part because on some level she's not sure she believes him because they didn't plan on doing it again when they came to this shower and LOOK WHAT HAPPENED but also because she's just starving after expending all that energy.
Only then does she step in closer again and wrap her arms around his middle as though they were going to cuddle right here, upright, and rest. She wants to eat and sleep and keep touching him the whole time because even if her body is worn out, every other part of her is still screaming for him. Instead she settles on humming quietly and savoring this contact as it's afforded to her. ]
[He might just collapse asleep where he is standing. But as soon as he says it, he feels hunger begin to creep in. Is it her’s or his own? Its impossible to tell right now when he can almost feel every vertebrae in Rey’s spine cracking as if it were his own. Just a moment ago, his stomach had been bothering him from how much effort he had expended (and he might be dehydrated — he couldn’t be sure, but that was what it felt like, and it seemed logical given how much fluid he has pushed out of his body today).
He doesn’t fight the grip on his torso, and lets his eyes drift shut. He is mumbling as the water begins to grow cold.]
We can’t stay here.
[He gropes for her arms with his eyes half closed and seeks to trade positions with her so that he isn’t blocking the water anymore.]
[ 'We can't say here,' that is. Though she only says it when she's back in the spray and reluctantly getting to washing her body. Somehow, this is more starkly intimate than the hungry way they'd just consumed one another.
It's pedestrian. Functional, the way Drakstaden had often been, and only her experience in Drakstaden prevents it from feeling out of place as she rubs water between her thighs to get rid of the mingled fluids there. She's sensitive — verging on painfully sensitive now, and the direct spray is unwelcome. She twitches from it.
But she rubs her fingers through her folds anyway to clean herself, marveling at how stretched and hollow and achey she feels now. Her hips almost feel like they're in a new position on her body, her legs sore like they'd be after a hard day's work on Jakku, but in different places. ]
But there's not a better place for us to go. We both have roommates.
[ At least in this cramped quarters, even as cold as the water is, they have privacy and one another. She grabs for the soap and tries to finish what he had started, making quick work of it — quicker for the chill. She passes the body wash off to him while she rinses it off. ]
For a facility designed for this, they're not especially accommodating.
[She points out the obvious, and he doesn't have an answer for her, so he goes quiet. The truth, though he could scarcely recognize it, was that he was anxious about remaining in one place like this for too long.
And he stays quiet the entire time he spends lathering soap on his body, less thorough than he often is due to the temperature of the water going cold as well as the odd feeling of being under the spotlight.]
Or perhaps we simply have not found the private areas yet.
[That is mumbled. He hadn't especially been looking for them, so very overwhelmed by the mess he had gotten himself into. It doesn't occur to him that the facility might want the public to see what they are doing.]
[ She can't put her finger on why, but her intuition tells her that this all adds up with the sandsharks in a way that she doesn't quite have the awareness to possess reasoning for. This is deliberate, she's sure. She just can't put her finger on what they get out of it being deliberate. She grapples for the shampoo and suds her hair up.
Looking at him, she can see him starting to withdraw a little. A nervous fear that runs like a current under his skin. That sensation has become her constant companion and constant opponent, these past months. It's what losing him feels like. ]
We can keep looking. [ It's a fair compromise. I'm sure there's somewhere we can linger without fearing interruption.
[ She combs her fingers through sudsy hair, drawing it barely over her shoulder. It draws attention to how long it has grown, skimming the top of her breasts. ]
For the next time.
[ There's a silent question there. She won't beg him for his approval, but her eyes are wide and shining and fearful and hoping that for all of this he will have judged her worthy. Something to be wanted, now that the haze has faded. He'd behaved that way to be sure, unrestrained as he was, but he hadn't — expressed. Not in the same way. Just a need to be needed, and she did. But that leaves her in a strange liminal space of wondering if that praise goes both ways. ]
["For the next time" draws his attention to her, as he imagines it is supposed to, though he doesn't quite piece out why. In this, they speak two different languages (the language of Kylo being "a repressed dude who doesn't know how to vocalize emotion"). So he nods awkwardly in response to what Rey has offered him, reaching for one of her hands once she lets it drop from her hair.]
They want us to be seen. It would be a waste of time.
[He can vocalize the conclusion they've both come to, though, as uncomfortable as it makes him. The energy would be better spent on figuring out how to handle that reality -- a reality where he doesn't murder someone for laying eyes on Rey, imagining themselves in his place.
[ Waste of time feels like a stab into the soft tissue of her abdomen. Striking down her idea without one to take it place frightens her, throws her, leaves her feeling abruptly discarded, but she knows that can't be true because his hand is still holding hers. No. It's just his pessimism chafing against her optimism again. Not a personal attack, but a different way of approaching the issue. ]
It'll be worth wasting if there's a chance.
[ To her, anyway. Feeling on the ropes as she does, she feels the need to qualify that with a justification of why, ] If it means not having to rush off right away.
[ She wants to linger in his embrace and enjoy the time to themselves. As long as he is tensely anticipating the arrival of someone else to crash that bliss, she's not going to get it. She'll find privacy, or barter for some, if it can get her that chance to bask for more than a handful of minutes.
More to the point, his opposition to anyone else seeing has her feeling like she's really just ... begging for there to be a next time at all, one where he isn't too frayed and fearful to allow her to touch him. ]
[That clicks into place almost audibly, and he nods again for her. Yes, that's easy enough to agree with. He isn't running away from her after all, just the idea that someone else might spot them both in a vulnerable moment. And then he would have to kill them and -- well, he's gotten the message that Rey doesn't really appreciate his methods of conflict resolution.
But no matter her faith in him, that would never change. The longer he could avoid it and keep it at bay, the longer he'd be able to hold onto her. That's the plan he's formed for himself.
So privacy works in their favor. If they could find it, it would be worth it. Maybe it wasn't a waste of time. Communal showers were hardly private, but they had come when it wasn't busy. That was almost like privacy.]
The cold of the shower spray finally hits her as she transitions, awkwardly, to rinsing the shampoo out of her hair. Shivering, she wrings it dry as best she can without particular grace or gentleness. The chill sinks into her bones, spreading through her, terrible even once she's out of the cold spray. The air clings to it, helps it seep in.
Because, of course, it's not just the shower. It's the way that he's separating from her while she still needs to feel connected to him. The way she folds her arms around herself to stave off the cold makes room, somehow, for a sudden and unwelcome fragility to settle around her like a cloak.
The ache in her body has woken up too, now. It feels like being torn and raw on the inside. ]
Come with me to get something to eat.
[ Pushed out rudely like this, it almost sounds like a command. But it's the only solution she finds that isn't begging him to say something decent about her and assure her that he's not eager to leave her, which she already knows. She's trying to balance her understanding of the fact that he expresses better through action with the fact that right now, his actions read quite easily like he can't be rid of her fast enough. That doesn't give him the credit he deserves, though. ]
[He frowns briefly -- no, she means after they've gotten themselves decent, surely. They just spent time agreeing that they need privacy. So the look doesn't stick. He isn't really hungry, but he recognizes a command when he hears one, and that's easy to acquiesce to.]
Alright.
[He gently reaches to move her aside, just enough to shower the rest of the suds off of him before he turns the water off. But as he reaches for a towel to wrap around her, he pauses with her swaddled in his arms.]
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After she’s found her grip and beins arching into his hand, he allows it to roam more freely, sweeping his large hand across her collar bone to leave behind a trail of soap. When he reaches the opposite shoulder, he curls his hand around it and holds purchase there, releasing the hold of his teeth to instead press his lips to her ear. His other hand moves lower, massaging over the tops of her thighs as far as he can reach without needing to kneel. His hand slides a bit easier as the fluids mix with soap, and he feels a familiar heat creeping into his bloodstream. He doesn’t bother to verbally communicate this time; in addition to the heavy presence at her back, the Force might weigh heavily on her mind.
He is listening, studying what works and what does not in between what his own instincts tell him to do. Back in Drakstaden, he had thought he had ample opportunity to learn the curves of her body, but having her pressed to him like this quickly shows him that he hadn’t really known much of anything.]
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This teasing shines a light on how empty she feels without him there, but the bond is dilating, widened by the way they burrow into one another, and she knows that he feels it too. Of course he does. He always has.
Caught in the circle of his arms, she feels surrounded. Enveloped in the heat of his body, the glide of his skin. He's solid and real and here. After a lifetime surviving without touch, it's almost too much stimulation at once, to feel his hands mapping her with him so solidly pressed to her back. But if it is, she'll suffer happily.
Eager noises punctuate the path he blazes across her collarbone, and her head tilts, exposing her neck, making room for his mouth at her ear. She feels useless, pinned to him like this, so her hand tightens in his hair, grabbing a fistful that pulls harder for how damp and clumped together it is. It affords her the illusion of control, which she undermines entirely with a squirming, desperate rasp: ] More.
[ When his fingers find her thighs, her knees part wider, beckoning him in with some futility. She hazards a glance down. There's an acute sense of loss as the soap washes away the traces of him from inside her thighs, and she whimpers. Her hips buck back against his, seeking reassurance in the heavy warm that presses into her. It's a modest comfort, which she rocks back against. But given the slow exploration his hands trace, taking their time in stimulating her without satisfying that electric prickle that maps her skin, she spots a way to take something for herself.
The hand she keeps on his hip slides down between them and gropes for the weight of his burgeoning erection. He's not as hard as she's felt him before. But he's reacting to her, and she can feel it. She presses him between the cleft of her ass, giving him room to swell against the curve of her pelvis along her folds. ]
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Last he checked, they were supposed to be washing the mess off, not creating more. And that thought slips between them with some amusement behind it. He was not prepared to deny himself the pleasure he'd felt not so long ago, and so the refusal to engage does not stick.
As the soap sticks to Rey's legs, his hand ventures higher to slip between folds of skin, seeking out the small bundle of nerves that she had guided him toward earlier. He is quicker to find it this time, spreading his fingers to expose her to the cold air before slipping one of them inside of her.
But he pauses before getting too aggressive with her, the sound of More echoing in his ears, instead pushing his hips forward to trap her hand between them. Boldness rises in his tone.]
More what?
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On its heels comes a whimper as his fingers find her cunt. The way he spreads her open prickles her anticipation just like the hand at her throat. His touch is so close to satisfying that sensitivity, but the brush of his fingertips across her sensitive flesh is too short-lived, and his single digit too thin after she had just had so much more. She's soaked on the inside, slick still with his cum where the water couldn't wash it away, and his finger slides right in.
She seethes out a grateful moan.
Like before, it's a steep escalation. But only in the moment. All sorts of explosions can look sudden if one ignores the fuse that has been burning. She releases his hair, slaps her open palm against the wall of the shower with a heavy thud. Every breath scrapes out of her lungs, heaving her chest.
Hearing his voice so low and controlled in her ear makes her shudder, but she can't parse what he's reaching for. She flutters around him, aching for fulfillment but groping blindly to convince him to give it to her.
He already knows, she can feel it. He's found his way there on his own this time. She tries to pull her hand back, to show him, but it's trapped between their bodies. He must want to hear her ask for it then. Ask for it from him. That solidifies his need for control, crystalizes it in her mind. She's not too proud to give it to him, not when he's showing her how badly he wants her. ]
More, please. [ Her hips rock into his hand — or strain to, anyway. His grip makes it hard, keeps her steadfast against him. ] I want to come.
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How?
[That question is less sure, less demanding, but no less intimate in how it is pressed into her ear. This is uncharted territory for him -- the dirty talk, the vocalization of any sort of vulnerability in his desire to please her how she wants to be pleased. He can track easily enough what she wants through the Force and through the way she struggles to rock across his finger, but seeking affirmation is all he really knows how to do.]
Tell me how you want me to do it.
[She's still holding him, in spite of being trapped between their bodies. He shifts just enough to bury himself to hilt in her hand, the muscles of his abs rocking against her spine. He's easily swelled in her hand. The question of whether or not she wants him isn't there -- just which way would be the best way. He's almost sure that he might come just from the act of pushing her over again.]
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She'd thought his aggression was the mark of pure, unadulterated desire, that it showed more than anything else could how ardently he wanted her. She'd been wrong. This is something far better.
Whatever appeal his forceful overtaking of her had held, it's nothing next to this offer. It repositions everything for her to hear him so earnestly offer her what she needs — it's softer than trying to possess her. It's trying to drink her down and learn her and satisfy her. She's never valued herself highly enough to hope for that kind of attention, and she hardly knows what to do with it.
The water is warm, nearly scorching, but Rey shivers all the same. ]
I want you inside of me. [ She licks her lips, rocking her hips back against him in both indication and encouragement. ] Your … [ She doesn't know how to ask for it. Has never had to use the words before, and they feel as foreign and filthy on her tongue as Huttese. ] Your cock belongs in me. Use your fingers while I take it.
[ Now that it's out there, she braces for some kind of negative reaction. But it's just the truth. And she's aching for it. If she puts any real thought towards it, she's not actually afraid of him refusing her or scorning her — after all, he'd been the one to ask, to express that earnest need to satisfy. But she does feel vulnerable, but ultimately it's only fair to give him that in kind. ]
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He makes mental note of that.
It only takes a moment to feel himself press against her cunt, slick, stretched and ready for him. This time, he is not gentle in how he drives himself upward, a slick thrust that comes with a satisfied sound slipping through his teeth. It takes effort to hold his balance on the slick floor while he moves, but he is strong enough to keep his balance in spite of that.
One hand wanders back to her breasts, squeezing the flesh and rolling her nipple between his fingers. The other hand between her legs again. Its harder to find the nub of flesh that he knows is there with his large fingers when they are tied like this, but he makes the effort as asked. All the while, he stays buried deep within her, rocking her back and forth across him, searching for her.
Distantly, some part of him recognizes that he is over stimulated. The urge to satisfy her is there, but becoming more distant in comparison to the urge to satisfy himself. He suppresses it by ducking his head again to sink his teeth into her neck -- perhaps a touch too hard.]
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The fit is different. This seems like it should have been obvious, but Rey had taken their first time to mean that they understood how this worked. But the new angle presses his length into her in different places, a wonder given that she'd thought he had stretched and filled and touched every part of her. This discovery only makes her hungry, eager to find new ways to experience him.
But that's for another time. She's ahead of herself.
It's a terrible waste of water. Even now the little girl inside of her is howling as it cascades over their joined bodies, hot and soothing. But she can't care. Next to this, it's nothing, and no one in this facility is wanting like she had been on Jakku.
Each movement is slight at first, a rocking of hips, sans thrusting. She doesn't want to disrupt his efforts to relocate the spot he's looking for, and the pleasant distraction of his palm kneading at her breast keeps her stimulated and distracted well enough. Her whole body's alive with it.
But after a moment's fumbling, Rey can't take the pause anymore. She's too revved up. She reaches down and helps push his fingers to the right place, pressing vigorously and twitching at how that firmness rides so close to the borderline of too much while his cock's spreading her open like this.
A shuddering breath comes out, a shiver crawls up her back and through her shoulders. ]
Move. [ Her voice barely sounds like her own, husky and low and full of desire. ] Please. I need it. [ Needs him. More than she's ever needed anything in her life. She'd thought this exposed his desire for her, the lengths of it, how uncontrolled it was, but now she's the one desperate and pleading and she has to wonder. ]
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So he grumbles with some frustration, and comes to the conclusion that Rey eventually arrives at herself: he needs to move, and he needs to do it without worrying about either of them slipping.
So, he pulls his hands away entirely to grab for her wrists in order to redirect them to the towel bar in front of her -- at least, that is what he imagines that it is for. Maybe later, he will make note that, given the purpose of this facility, it is likely intended for the purposes for which they are about to use it. He places her hands there and forcefully closes his hands over her fingers to imply that she should find her grip there. Once she complies, his hands fall back to her hips.
And then, after angling her some, he is moving again -- faster, this time. He thrusts forward the same time he pulls her backwards, and its enough to get him groaning again. His breathing becomes audible, a heavy pant that suggests he's putting quite a lot of energy into the simple act of pulling her as close to him as she can possibly get.
He finds a quick rhythm and shifts his grip to the front of her thighs, to keep her spread for him and allow him potential access to her clit again. He hasn't quite figured out how to get that far (or if he even needs to -- that's a question that's too deep for him to even begin to ask when he's in the middle of driving into her like he is), but so long as he thinks to have the option...maybe that will be enough.]
You need me.
[Its a correction that comes after he's been thrusting for a bit, no doubt stuck on the vocabulary she chose.]
Say it.
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She'd said it to him the night before. It occurs to her to say it now because Force knows she needs to hear it. But maybe not as much as he does. He's the one who came back to her, after all. He'd proven it in the compromises that he'd made, in saving Poe's life, and — yes — in the way he raws her like a karking animal.
A groan spills past her lips as he thrusts deep into her, the spread of her thighs welcoming him in further now that she's bowed against the bar and he's got the hold on her hips. Her feet want to slide out further, but she's already shorter than him. More to the point, she's not Veronica Lodge. She's not all flexible and yoga-skilled. That'd be a very unhappy ending to an otherwise pleasantly surprising round two. So she tries to keep her tired legs clenched and steady in spite of the slippery floor.
It keeps her grounded. Keeps her back rigid too, and that same tension pervades her body and turns her knuckles white where she grips the multipurpose bar. It's made harder by the fact that this angle gets him into just the right spot inside of her that every thrust in has her legs twitching, ready to give as warm pleasure spreads through her belly.
The shower and his thrusts have started to carry some of the slick from her body down the drain, but the faint friction isn't stopping her from bouncing back against him on each thrust.
He's right. It occurs to her as if independent of his demand. She whines, aching for that little bit of extra attention that will push her over the edge, which he seems to be denying her at the cost of this praise. ]
You.
[ She pants it out. Someone's going to hear her, loud as she is, but frankly it's the bottom of her list of concerns. ]
Only you. Always you. [ This comes easier than the filthy details. It's emotional, drawn out of her fluidly by the high. ] I need you, Ben. Please. It's so good. [ No, he didn't like that distance. She corrects in a slurred whimper. ] You feel so good.
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And then, one of them strays, dragging back between her legs again. There is no trouble finding her clit this time -- the bond practically drags him there with the weight of it when he leans into that desire. Its hard for him to believe what she says, even when he confirms the lack of falsehood. But she's said it when prompted, even takes the effort to correct herself when she strays from the point.
Someone in this forsaken galaxy wants him, and she's as radiant as a star in so many different ways. She burns bright beneath him, and even though he knows he's in control here, he can't help but feel that she could halt this at any moment she chose, and she had not. She could have gone anywhere -- anyone not to take her would have been a fool, a dead fool for the moment he'd found out someone had denied her.
Its a dangerous spiral he's spinning through, and the heat in his belly grows with each thrust. His mouth opens, and he can feel it coming --
The hand on her breast flies to her neck to tilt her chin back, and he closes his mouth around her own in spite of the awkward angle. He needs it as badly as she'd needed the girth of him inside of her. And he rocks up once, powerfully, and spills within her a second time this evening.]
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Her climax is a thing of keening and trembling. She loses their rhythm entirely, clinging desperately to the railing as though it were the only thing keeping her alive and rocking between his cock and his fingers seeking to both flee the suddenly overwhelming sensations and to drink down more, more, more.
She rides it out, feels heat spill inside as he crashes with her, and he twists her neck and she kisses him like she's trying to devour him. She hadn't needed to drag it from him this time with pain, she notes. It comes on the heels of her shouts of praise instead. That's when the stupid decision comes to surrender the grip of one hand on the bar and she grabs back for a fistful of his hair to hold him tight, strain to press their mouths together.
The spray from the shower gets between them. It's a sopping wet kiss, and she has to break it to let that water dribble down her chin onto her torso, but then she's back at it. In fact, now that he has come, she straightens up considerably, shoves away from the towel bar to pin him between her back and the opposite shower wall, trying to hold him in her as long as she can.
The bond expands, swells, and they melt together. She can feel him: drunk on that affection she'd heaped upon him, drunk on her. It's a feeling she recognizes. She's the same. But the request doesn't come to her as easily as it seems to have come to him. She doesn't know how to ask for it. Perhaps because for him, it'd been an order, delivered in the heat of the moment while he was bending her under his touch. She sates herself on the feeling, transferred between their connection. They don't need words. ]
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Blindly, he gropes for her, to hold her for the sake of it rather than to pleasure her. He clings like she is all he has, in spite of the ache he starts to feel as he begins to soften. Its hard not to wonder how they were going to go back to being anything but what they were right then. How he was expected to sleep in someone else's bed tonight, how she would wash the smell of him away (though she would be trapped with those bruises from his teeth for a few days).
He doesn't recognize what she needs from him, half exhausted and drunk on their coupling. He can barely stand, barely think, and were it not for his stubborn attitude, he'd no doubt be sleeping on the floor of the shower right then. Perhaps it was good that she hadn't had the opportunity to tug upon his hair for long, or to get creative in other ways.
Aside from...pinning him to the wall and trapping his dick inside of her, that is.]
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The bites on her shoulders are starting to ache, a dull thud. The sharp sting of them had felt like heaven when he'd put them there, but now she's realizing that they're bruising. For now, that dull ache only serves to facilitate the fuzzy numbness, a warm heat that drapes across her skin, lulling her into a relaxed haze with him.
Rey doesn't open her eyes until her breathing regulates, evening out from its fever pitch. She smacks her lips a little, working on huffing out the last heavy exhales. The water is miraculously still warm and the soap has been washed off of her front. Somewhere between all the fucking and leaning, probably. A light, awed huff escapes her, almost a laugh.
She feels like starlight and the sand when it's warm and the setting sun. Effulgent. She shifts once she's comfortable to look back up at him again. He's beautiful. She hadn't gotten to appreciate it this time, but he is. Red in the face and dripping wet and ragged at the edges and hers. The embrace says everything she'd wanted to hear, really. He feels the same way. ]
Alright. [ This she offers up after some time. He's practically slipping out by then despite all her best efforts by sheer virtue of a) gravity, b) shrinkage. ] If we're going to do that again, I'm going to have to eat first.
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He goes to move, and his shoulders resist. They've locked up, bruised in the same manner as Rey's neck but also stiff from overuse. He mumbles a soft protest and tries to find -- some kind of grip on her before he speaks again.]
I don't -- think I can do that again.
[At least, not right now. He says it without thinking about it, until he starts thinking about it, and then he swallows down that fear of under-preforming in front of Rey. JK he's awake now.]
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A groan slips out of her as she raises her arms up above her head and stretches. Her back twinges with it, as do her shoulders where he's marked her, everything tugging in the opposite direction it had locked up while they were going at it. ]
Maybe you're right. [ She reaches down to touch herself, a little awed by how empty she feels and how stretched and sore she is. Her fingertips find her folds swollen and oversensitive and she winds up rubbing her heel into the thatch of hair just above as she flinches away from that contact. ] I still want to eat.
[ In part because on some level she's not sure she believes him because they didn't plan on doing it again when they came to this shower and LOOK WHAT HAPPENED but also because she's just starving after expending all that energy.
Only then does she step in closer again and wrap her arms around his middle as though they were going to cuddle right here, upright, and rest. She wants to eat and sleep and keep touching him the whole time because even if her body is worn out, every other part of her is still screaming for him. Instead she settles on humming quietly and savoring this contact as it's afforded to her. ]
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[He might just collapse asleep where he is standing. But as soon as he says it, he feels hunger begin to creep in. Is it her’s or his own? Its impossible to tell right now when he can almost feel every vertebrae in Rey’s spine cracking as if it were his own. Just a moment ago, his stomach had been bothering him from how much effort he had expended (and he might be dehydrated — he couldn’t be sure, but that was what it felt like, and it seemed logical given how much fluid he has pushed out of his body today).
He doesn’t fight the grip on his torso, and lets his eyes drift shut. He is mumbling as the water begins to grow cold.]
We can’t stay here.
[He gropes for her arms with his eyes half closed and seeks to trade positions with her so that he isn’t blocking the water anymore.]
Finish washing yourself.
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[ 'We can't say here,' that is. Though she only says it when she's back in the spray and reluctantly getting to washing her body. Somehow, this is more starkly intimate than the hungry way they'd just consumed one another.
It's pedestrian. Functional, the way Drakstaden had often been, and only her experience in Drakstaden prevents it from feeling out of place as she rubs water between her thighs to get rid of the mingled fluids there. She's sensitive — verging on painfully sensitive now, and the direct spray is unwelcome. She twitches from it.
But she rubs her fingers through her folds anyway to clean herself, marveling at how stretched and hollow and achey she feels now. Her hips almost feel like they're in a new position on her body, her legs sore like they'd be after a hard day's work on Jakku, but in different places. ]
But there's not a better place for us to go. We both have roommates.
[ At least in this cramped quarters, even as cold as the water is, they have privacy and one another. She grabs for the soap and tries to finish what he had started, making quick work of it — quicker for the chill. She passes the body wash off to him while she rinses it off. ]
For a facility designed for this, they're not especially accommodating.
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And he stays quiet the entire time he spends lathering soap on his body, less thorough than he often is due to the temperature of the water going cold as well as the odd feeling of being under the spotlight.]
Or perhaps we simply have not found the private areas yet.
[That is mumbled. He hadn't especially been looking for them, so very overwhelmed by the mess he had gotten himself into. It doesn't occur to him that the facility might want the public to see what they are doing.]
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[ She can't put her finger on why, but her intuition tells her that this all adds up with the sandsharks in a way that she doesn't quite have the awareness to possess reasoning for. This is deliberate, she's sure. She just can't put her finger on what they get out of it being deliberate. She grapples for the shampoo and suds her hair up.
Looking at him, she can see him starting to withdraw a little. A nervous fear that runs like a current under his skin. That sensation has become her constant companion and constant opponent, these past months. It's what losing him feels like. ]
We can keep looking. [ It's a fair compromise. I'm sure there's somewhere we can linger without fearing interruption.
[ She combs her fingers through sudsy hair, drawing it barely over her shoulder. It draws attention to how long it has grown, skimming the top of her breasts. ]
For the next time.
[ There's a silent question there. She won't beg him for his approval, but her eyes are wide and shining and fearful and hoping that for all of this he will have judged her worthy. Something to be wanted, now that the haze has faded. He'd behaved that way to be sure, unrestrained as he was, but he hadn't — expressed. Not in the same way. Just a need to be needed, and she did. But that leaves her in a strange liminal space of wondering if that praise goes both ways. ]
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They want us to be seen. It would be a waste of time.
[He can vocalize the conclusion they've both come to, though, as uncomfortable as it makes him. The energy would be better spent on figuring out how to handle that reality -- a reality where he doesn't murder someone for laying eyes on Rey, imagining themselves in his place.
Because why else would anyone watch?]
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It'll be worth wasting if there's a chance.
[ To her, anyway. Feeling on the ropes as she does, she feels the need to qualify that with a justification of why, ] If it means not having to rush off right away.
[ She wants to linger in his embrace and enjoy the time to themselves. As long as he is tensely anticipating the arrival of someone else to crash that bliss, she's not going to get it. She'll find privacy, or barter for some, if it can get her that chance to bask for more than a handful of minutes.
More to the point, his opposition to anyone else seeing has her feeling like she's really just ... begging for there to be a next time at all, one where he isn't too frayed and fearful to allow her to touch him. ]
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But no matter her faith in him, that would never change. The longer he could avoid it and keep it at bay, the longer he'd be able to hold onto her. That's the plan he's formed for himself.
So privacy works in their favor. If they could find it, it would be worth it. Maybe it wasn't a waste of time. Communal showers were hardly private, but they had come when it wasn't busy. That was almost like privacy.]
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The cold of the shower spray finally hits her as she transitions, awkwardly, to rinsing the shampoo out of her hair. Shivering, she wrings it dry as best she can without particular grace or gentleness. The chill sinks into her bones, spreading through her, terrible even once she's out of the cold spray. The air clings to it, helps it seep in.
Because, of course, it's not just the shower. It's the way that he's separating from her while she still needs to feel connected to him. The way she folds her arms around herself to stave off the cold makes room, somehow, for a sudden and unwelcome fragility to settle around her like a cloak.
The ache in her body has woken up too, now. It feels like being torn and raw on the inside. ]
Come with me to get something to eat.
[ Pushed out rudely like this, it almost sounds like a command. But it's the only solution she finds that isn't begging him to say something decent about her and assure her that he's not eager to leave her, which she already knows. She's trying to balance her understanding of the fact that he expresses better through action with the fact that right now, his actions read quite easily like he can't be rid of her fast enough. That doesn't give him the credit he deserves, though. ]
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Alright.
[He gently reaches to move her aside, just enough to shower the rest of the suds off of him before he turns the water off. But as he reaches for a towel to wrap around her, he pauses with her swaddled in his arms.]
...our clothes are not going to be dry.
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