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ĸylo ren ([personal profile] sololoquy) wrote2018-12-23 07:46 am

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WISHLIST (TROS SPOILERS)


anything force-bond related, but especially:
  • slow-burn corruption (either direction)

  • inappropriately timed force bond moments (both nsfw and humor approaches)

  • dream-sharing

  • emotional bleed/transference (from rey, involving other parties)

  • inappropriate force bond voyeurism on rey/poe or rey/finn

  • mid-conversation force bond interruption

  • The Rise of Skywalker- Cross-galaxy chase of the Resistance


anything related to ben solo, but especially:
  • snoke confessionals with family or friends of family

  • returning to the light

  • smuggler life style

  • jedi knight ben

  • resistance-fighter ben

  • The Rise of Skywalker- Force Ghost communications w/ Rey


anything related to supreme leader kylo ren, but especially:
  • fall via coup

  • resistance fighter reconditioning (gen or nsfw)

  • force ghost visits from anakin/luke/rey/leia/snoke

  • defeat by the resistance, and subsequent aftermath

  • The Rise of Skywalker- Mole Discovery w/ Hux


canto bight:
  • shady weapons deals

  • picking up prisoners

  • recruitment

  • obligatory dinner party

  • general casino shenanigans

  • beach party

  • basically any reason you can think of to use canto bight as a setting piece


A note on romance:
I will ship all of the new trilogy characters with Kylo Ren (except Snoke/Family).
But I have no interest in exploring domestic-style takes on them.
Thank you for understanding.
forcevisions: (there's a killer on the corner)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 06:29 am (UTC)(link)
[ Watching him retreat, Rey doesn't feel like she won.

It feels like the blood has drained from her body, like the storm will never pass, like the room has grown smaller, quieter, colder. Rey looks away. She can't stand to watch him like this. Instead, she picks up the device that Rost had charged them to find. Turning it over in her hands only makes her want to throw it at the wall. The metal is cold and unforgiving, just like this whole damned city.

She does not want to win when winning demands fighting against him. She wants them on the same side. She wants to feel close to him like she did before. Briefly, piteously, she looks over her shoulder at him. She's lucky that she slept first. Lying there in sheets that smelled of him would destroy her. That was the real reason she'd left their room at the hotel. She couldn't stand to sleep in a place that still felt like him, nor could she stand to see those markers of him erased.

Even now she just wants to crawl in beside him. But she can't force him. And she can't settle. So loneliness it is. She watches through the window as the rain stops.
]
forcevisions: (i mean i rose up from the dead)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 05:26 pm (UTC)(link)
[ hotly: ] I'm not your dog.

[ He can't have her when he wants and discard her when her needs are inconvenient. She won't go to him pretending things are anything but what they are. If he cannot make himself better, then she cannot bend.

She turns to look at him, at least, but her eyes are full of hurt and resentment.
]
forcevisions: (i just got too lonely)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 05:44 pm (UTC)(link)
[ It's not that easy. It might have been, before. But Rey doesn't soften this time. He's really fucked it up, turning away from her for no reason other than a refusal to be the person she had seen in him, the one she deserves. ]

Why? [ That word isn't magic anymore. The problem goes beyond mannerisms to mindset. She won't conflate his disposition towards her with any meaningful change this time. ]
forcevisions: (hanging out the passenger side)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 06:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I don't hate you.

[ He has always excelled in taking her words in the worst way possible. This doesn't surprise her anymore. It's strange how completely she has rid herself of illusions about him. No. Not rid herself. Loki had rid her. She couldn't have done it without him either.

Would he think of her and Kylo? Would he try to stop the departure?
]

I'm not going to forgive you for hurting me just because you think we're going to die. If you want forgiveness, do better. [ It sounds cruel now to say it, but she's also not preoccupied with their immediate deaths. They have time at the very least. ]
forcevisions: (never mind i'll be drowned)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 07:56 pm (UTC)(link)
That's not gonna happen.

[ For too many reasons to list. In fact, the suggestion insults her. Does he not realize that it would hurt her more to be that close to him, knowing she's not important enough for him to grapple with his own shit?

This is the boundary now. Rey won't allow them to creep into some uneasy middle. If they're not together, they're not together. It's as easy as that. Letting boundaries become suggestions, letting 'try' be good enough, was how she'd opened herself to being hurt in the first place. She was desperate for companionship then.

She won't let it happen again. Being alone in this place would be better than being with him, knowing she would never be good enough.
]
forcevisions: (cuz you're gonna sing the words wr)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 08:47 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Rey's hackles raise as Kylo gets to his feet. He offers to beg, but his sheer size as he comes to his full height indicates a different brand of intended leverage. The muscles of her jaw ripple briefly as it clenches. ]

It won't make a difference.

[ Desperate people do desperate things. Rey saw many examples on Jakku. But she wants nothing from him out of desperation, and she wouldn't believe it, anyway. ]

Help me get home to my friends. [ That's the line. ] Help me help Rost. Help anyone but yourself. [ Then, they can talk. It's a glimmer of a chance. Light on the horizon. ]
forcevisions: (for the fallen ones)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 09:07 pm (UTC)(link)
Neither would begging.

[ It would be easier if she could say he was wrong in all the assumptions he made about her state of mind, her feelings. But Ben has always been astute on that point. They are so similar, after all.

Even now, his offer to help her out of the list she'd given leaves her suspicious. He'd always been willing to help her. It is different, yes, when he's helping her against his own self-interest; he would have an easier time investing himself in the inevitability of her buckling to him if they were alone here. It's hard to imagine the rest of their lives at each other's throats if they have no one else. But he still only sees the two of them.

The problem remains.
]

Go to sleep, Kylo.
forcevisions: (If it doesn't)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Not yet. But it's started to drain.

[ The flooding has lessened, at least. Rey taps her fingers on the window pane. For the first time, seeming for all the world like she wants to get out, not just wait. She's had a lot of time to think, these past few hours. Being caught up with him in such close quarters makes that hard. They lose perspective as their vision tunnels on one another. ]

You threw me out.

[ She wants to make sure that's well-established. ]

You don't trust me. You would rather see my friends dead than me happy with them. [ He had tried to kill Keith. She had been foolish to walk back from that at all. ] What kind of companionship is that?

[ Doesn't he understand that he's asking her to live a half-life with him? Meanwhile, he treats her like her needs are an attack on him, then when it inconveniences him, or when he's confronted with the fear of death, he claws for it anyway. It's all he has, but he's the one refusing to search for more. ]

Never expect me to accept that again. I won't.
forcevisions: (these feelings tend to leave me)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
You know ...

[ Rey adopts an unearned levity. It rings wrong. Off-key. Because he's so familiar to her now, but that familiarity only helps her point out the gaps. The same pits that used to trap her. ]

You do that sometimes. You'll say that, instead of "I'm sorry." Because you're not sorry for what you did, or what you said. It was a mistake because you don't like the consequences. Like a bad calculation.

[ Some part of her hopes that this time, he tells her she's wrong. This time, he says that he's sorry, and he means it. Instead of avoiding it because she will sense the inherent dishonesty. But she's not hanging onto that hope anymore. ]
forcevisions: (who quit too late)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Despite her hope, he catches her off guard. The mask of ease slips. The hardness cracks away like a brittle coating, and her mouth hangs open as she regards him with bright, vulnerable eyes. At first, she doesn't say anything. He derailed her every expectation with that, and she doesn't know what course to correct to. Instead, she gapes, blinking away the surprise.

Then, she steps towards him. Cautious, wobbly, but firm. Just a few steps. Not even enough to close the already narrow distance in this cramped space.
]

I don't want us to have to hide or be afraid.
forcevisions: (now you're here it's been so long)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
You carry it. Instead of letting it carry you.

[ She takes another uneasy step forward. He's listening. She can tell from the way he pushes for more understanding. This isn't lip service; he wants to make a change. But wanting isn't the same as doing. So she stops after another step forward, drawing a deep breath. Steadying herself. There has to be a limit to how far she's willing to bend. ]

We all feel afraid sometimes. You feel the fear, and you do it anyway. Because the rewards are worth it. You ... You wanted to have someone who would come for you. [ She won't let him forget that. ] Like I would. If I'm the only person you ever trust, the only person you open yourself up to ... People might not disappoint you, Ben. But they won't surprise you either. And they won't be able to care.

[ And he wants to be cared about. She knows that because it's one of the things they have most in common—loneliness and neglect turned into starvation. ]
forcevisions: (two strangers in the bright light)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
Do.

[ That never changed. She won't let him get away with arguing that her establishing boundaries is the same as abandoning him or caring about him any less. It's the truth. ]

And I'm not special. [ Her voice cracks a little on the words. ] I'm nobody.

[ Even if that fact hurts her, it makes her point. ] Caring for you isn't a fluke. It's only because you let me see something you don't show other people. You ... cared. You understood. You listened, when I needed someone.
forcevisions: (I'd be usin')

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't believe him. Or she doesn't want to, but then ... He's not lying. Still, she digs in. ]

When you first saw me, you were hunting me like an animal.

[ He can't possibly romanticize that. ]

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