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ĸylo ren ([personal profile] sololoquy) wrote2018-12-23 07:46 am

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WISHLIST (TROS SPOILERS)


anything force-bond related, but especially:
  • slow-burn corruption (either direction)

  • inappropriately timed force bond moments (both nsfw and humor approaches)

  • dream-sharing

  • emotional bleed/transference (from rey, involving other parties)

  • inappropriate force bond voyeurism on rey/poe or rey/finn

  • mid-conversation force bond interruption

  • The Rise of Skywalker- Cross-galaxy chase of the Resistance


anything related to ben solo, but especially:
  • snoke confessionals with family or friends of family

  • returning to the light

  • smuggler life style

  • jedi knight ben

  • resistance-fighter ben

  • The Rise of Skywalker- Force Ghost communications w/ Rey


anything related to supreme leader kylo ren, but especially:
  • fall via coup

  • resistance fighter reconditioning (gen or nsfw)

  • force ghost visits from anakin/luke/rey/leia/snoke

  • defeat by the resistance, and subsequent aftermath

  • The Rise of Skywalker- Mole Discovery w/ Hux


canto bight:
  • shady weapons deals

  • picking up prisoners

  • recruitment

  • obligatory dinner party

  • general casino shenanigans

  • beach party

  • basically any reason you can think of to use canto bight as a setting piece


A note on romance:
I will ship all of the new trilogy characters with Kylo Ren (except Snoke/Family).
But I have no interest in exploring domestic-style takes on them.
Thank you for understanding.
forcevisions: (If it doesn't)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 10:10 pm (UTC)(link)
Not yet. But it's started to drain.

[ The flooding has lessened, at least. Rey taps her fingers on the window pane. For the first time, seeming for all the world like she wants to get out, not just wait. She's had a lot of time to think, these past few hours. Being caught up with him in such close quarters makes that hard. They lose perspective as their vision tunnels on one another. ]

You threw me out.

[ She wants to make sure that's well-established. ]

You don't trust me. You would rather see my friends dead than me happy with them. [ He had tried to kill Keith. She had been foolish to walk back from that at all. ] What kind of companionship is that?

[ Doesn't he understand that he's asking her to live a half-life with him? Meanwhile, he treats her like her needs are an attack on him, then when it inconveniences him, or when he's confronted with the fear of death, he claws for it anyway. It's all he has, but he's the one refusing to search for more. ]

Never expect me to accept that again. I won't.
forcevisions: (these feelings tend to leave me)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 11:12 pm (UTC)(link)
You know ...

[ Rey adopts an unearned levity. It rings wrong. Off-key. Because he's so familiar to her now, but that familiarity only helps her point out the gaps. The same pits that used to trap her. ]

You do that sometimes. You'll say that, instead of "I'm sorry." Because you're not sorry for what you did, or what you said. It was a mistake because you don't like the consequences. Like a bad calculation.

[ Some part of her hopes that this time, he tells her she's wrong. This time, he says that he's sorry, and he means it. Instead of avoiding it because she will sense the inherent dishonesty. But she's not hanging onto that hope anymore. ]
forcevisions: (who quit too late)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 11:29 pm (UTC)(link)
[ Despite her hope, he catches her off guard. The mask of ease slips. The hardness cracks away like a brittle coating, and her mouth hangs open as she regards him with bright, vulnerable eyes. At first, she doesn't say anything. He derailed her every expectation with that, and she doesn't know what course to correct to. Instead, she gapes, blinking away the surprise.

Then, she steps towards him. Cautious, wobbly, but firm. Just a few steps. Not even enough to close the already narrow distance in this cramped space.
]

I don't want us to have to hide or be afraid.
forcevisions: (now you're here it's been so long)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-28 11:40 pm (UTC)(link)
You carry it. Instead of letting it carry you.

[ She takes another uneasy step forward. He's listening. She can tell from the way he pushes for more understanding. This isn't lip service; he wants to make a change. But wanting isn't the same as doing. So she stops after another step forward, drawing a deep breath. Steadying herself. There has to be a limit to how far she's willing to bend. ]

We all feel afraid sometimes. You feel the fear, and you do it anyway. Because the rewards are worth it. You ... You wanted to have someone who would come for you. [ She won't let him forget that. ] Like I would. If I'm the only person you ever trust, the only person you open yourself up to ... People might not disappoint you, Ben. But they won't surprise you either. And they won't be able to care.

[ And he wants to be cared about. She knows that because it's one of the things they have most in common—loneliness and neglect turned into starvation. ]
forcevisions: (two strangers in the bright light)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 12:13 am (UTC)(link)
Do.

[ That never changed. She won't let him get away with arguing that her establishing boundaries is the same as abandoning him or caring about him any less. It's the truth. ]

And I'm not special. [ Her voice cracks a little on the words. ] I'm nobody.

[ Even if that fact hurts her, it makes her point. ] Caring for you isn't a fluke. It's only because you let me see something you don't show other people. You ... cared. You understood. You listened, when I needed someone.
forcevisions: (I'd be usin')

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't believe him. Or she doesn't want to, but then ... He's not lying. Still, she digs in. ]

When you first saw me, you were hunting me like an animal.

[ He can't possibly romanticize that. ]
forcevisions: (after everything you've done)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 01:08 am (UTC)(link)
It grew because I saw that Snoke had failed to turn you into a monster.

[ She's upon him then, in a moment. Swept up into the aching intensity of belief, of hope. Standing right in front of him, she makes her heartfelt plea, speech quickening with religious fervor. ]

He made you cut yourself off from people. From love. [ She shakes her head. Thinking of Han still hurts. It always will. And she wants to forgive him for it, but until he learns the lesson and rejects Snoke's teachings, not just the man, then Han's death will have been in vain. ] If you really want to put him behind you, then the bravest thing you can do is embrace the parts of yourself that he rejected.

[ Softly, slower now, ] I'm not the only person who flew into the heart of the First Order to save you, Ben. I'm not the only one who believed you can come back from this. I'm not ... some anomaly. You are worth saving. You are worth caring for.
forcevisions: (who quit too late)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 01:31 am (UTC)(link)
[ She doesn't flinch away, though she should. Not so long ago, she had told him what a poison he had been for her. But she isn't being drawn into it now. For the first time, it feels like this conversation is happening out in the open. Her hurt and her hope are both bare on her face, unabashed. ]

They weren't. They made a mistake. Just like you did. [ Rey reaches up to place one hand against his chest. Comfort, but also a flat palm keeping some distance. She isn't ready to let the heightened emotions of the moment push them back into anything haphazardly. ] But your father loved you. He tried to make it right. Your mother, too.

[ In different ways, that Rey isn't nearly as qualified to describe, but which she knows with utter confidence. ]
forcevisions: (i've been breaking hearts a long ti)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 01:42 am (UTC)(link)
You—

[ Her hand pulls back. ]

You didn't have me when your father came for you. You'd kidnapped me. [ Let's not get it twisted. ] And it's not worth any less just because he's not the only one who tried. It's not a contest for who can love you the most. You're missing the point. [ On purpose, a cynic might think. Rey chooses not to. ] Your mother is still alive. And there are other people who, if they knew you — the real you — would care just as much. But you won't let them because you think everyone is bound to disappoint you like your parents.

Where would I be, if I thought that way?
forcevisions: (echoes)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 02:30 am (UTC)(link)
[ It's the first time she doesn't like to see him smile. It's such a rarity, most of them only half-measures. But this one sits wrong in her chest. Rey stills. ]

What do you mean?

[ Because it sounds a lot like he's throwing it back in her face and telling her that she is holding people at a distance, afraid they'll leave like her parents did. Which would be ridiculous. She doesn't. She has people now. Maybe it takes her time, maybe she seldom lets them all the way in, the way she has let Ben in, but she has them. ]
forcevisions: (tfa_103)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 02:45 am (UTC)(link)
I have friends.

[ She leaves it there, flatly. It hits her wrong that he seems to frame it as a fault. He thought things would be better if she were more damaged. If she looked on everyone with more suspicion. ]

People who care about me, and want what's best for me. People that I can count on to ... to show up. [ Unlike her parents. It's healing, in that way. Her jaw trembles a little before she manages to get out the crux of what she's getting at: ] I want that for you.
forcevisions: (two strangers in the bright light)

[personal profile] forcevisions 2019-07-29 03:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ Her chest squeezes. A fluttering grip. That's the fear, but also the anticipation. It always comes when he's this close, and the way he combs her hair is familiar. Comforting. He knows how good it feels. He knows every part of her. It's deceptively effortless between them. ]

Do you mean that?

[ She so badly wants him to. A promise isn't follow-through. A maybe isn't even a promise. But it's an intent, and he wouldn't declare it if he didn't mean it. That's more than he's given her ever before. ]

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