[ The subtle shift in his voice, the rise of blame and aggression, has her bristling. She tenses in his grip, keenly aware of it and of the fact that it keeps her subject to him deciding how long he wants this to go on for. That's always been the way; that's the problem she'd been trying to address in leaving.
But what he says sounds a lot like what Keith had said. Out of Ben's mouth, it sounds an awful lot more like an accusation than a search for understanding, or an encouragement to stop enslaving herself to the good of others, but it's a variation on the same theme.
It's a question that has hung over her head for the past two months too. Is this really for the Resistance? Ben is their only hope. If she comes back without Luke, without Ben, then they're doomed. It would be a lie to say her hope for him isn't wrapped up in hope for them.
But she sticks on the word tool.
And then he releases her, and she's able to tuck her lightsaber away as she had intended, further reiterating that she has no intention of turning this into a confrontation. No matter what Finn and Poe are like.
It's … confusing. But saying it to Keith makes it easier to say now, as does her distance from Ahch-to and the perspective her time with ALASTAIR has offered, the perspective of such a long stretch spent spiraling without anyone to help her or understand.
Putting aside her hopes that he might choose to stand with her, that he might be something bigger, and the way she uses those hopes to justify and rationalize an otherwise selfish decision as somehow bigger than that — after all, because it is also right and good does not mean that is her reason for doing it, and compounded on that is the clarity that 'right and good' Finn and Poe have various Issues with this particular approach — this is … ]
No.
[ She doesn't want him to be a tool for anyone. Not for her. Not for Snoke. Not for the Resistance. She didn't come here for them; she came because she couldn't stand to let go of Keith and Urahara. She came because she wanted information about her parents that the island left her without. Maybe that makes Finn and Poe better than her, somehow, but she didn't come to him for that either. ]
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But what he says sounds a lot like what Keith had said. Out of Ben's mouth, it sounds an awful lot more like an accusation than a search for understanding, or an encouragement to stop enslaving herself to the good of others, but it's a variation on the same theme.
It's a question that has hung over her head for the past two months too. Is this really for the Resistance? Ben is their only hope. If she comes back without Luke, without Ben, then they're doomed. It would be a lie to say her hope for him isn't wrapped up in hope for them.
But she sticks on the word tool.
And then he releases her, and she's able to tuck her lightsaber away as she had intended, further reiterating that she has no intention of turning this into a confrontation. No matter what Finn and Poe are like.
It's … confusing. But saying it to Keith makes it easier to say now, as does her distance from Ahch-to and the perspective her time with ALASTAIR has offered, the perspective of such a long stretch spent spiraling without anyone to help her or understand.
Putting aside her hopes that he might choose to stand with her, that he might be something bigger, and the way she uses those hopes to justify and rationalize an otherwise selfish decision as somehow bigger than that — after all, because it is also right and good does not mean that is her reason for doing it, and compounded on that is the clarity that 'right and good' Finn and Poe have various Issues with this particular approach — this is … ]
No.
[ She doesn't want him to be a tool for anyone. Not for her. Not for Snoke. Not for the Resistance. She didn't come here for them; she came because she couldn't stand to let go of Keith and Urahara. She came because she wanted information about her parents that the island left her without. Maybe that makes Finn and Poe better than her, somehow, but she didn't come to him for that either. ]