[Its a plea -- he knows it when he hears it, but he doesn't understand it on the surface. She doesn't want to feel alone, that's what she claims. But how many times had he heard something of their relationship with one another conveyed by another person?
She wasn't alone. She was surrounded. He was alone -- and he liked it that way. Or so he thought. These days, it hurts more.]
I couldn't.
[Even if he wanted to. And he does want to -- some part of him still wants to retreat. Some part of him might always want to retreat. But he'd never be able to shut her out entirely, unless he found away to close this door wedged open between them.
And that is why all of this hurts so badly. He is at odds with himself again, and being torn apart. Was this what Darth Vader might have felt, had he not been killed? Was this just -- going to be the way it was, for the rest of his life?]
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She wasn't alone. She was surrounded. He was alone -- and he liked it that way. Or so he thought. These days, it hurts more.]
I couldn't.
[Even if he wanted to. And he does want to -- some part of him still wants to retreat. Some part of him might always want to retreat. But he'd never be able to shut her out entirely, unless he found away to close this door wedged open between them.
And that is why all of this hurts so badly. He is at odds with himself again, and being torn apart. Was this what Darth Vader might have felt, had he not been killed? Was this just -- going to be the way it was, for the rest of his life?]