[ it's what she wants to hear, for the first time. she never gets to appreciate the sense of relief because it's gone as soon as it comes, drowned out by something else. she weighs her own estimation of the event, and it isn't hard for her to examine and judge. ]
No.
[ her tone thick and watery. pain contorts her features then, striking suddenly. layers of it. on the first, that her uncertainty was only extended. there was no clear answer as to whether this was right or wrong of her. the second, that there was no clear reason for poe to be doing what he was doing if she was not in the wrong for it — she was not being punished. not righteously, certainly.
and third, that the only conclusion therein is that she remains, as ever, easily discarded. she wants to believe in some more substantial reason, some blame within herself, because it means that she had wronged poe in some way. that she meant something.
she presses her lips together, screwing up her expression to try and fight back the tears, but they come in one heaving sob that rattles her body. she does not want to leave this room. if she were still welcome in it, she would stay. if she were anything. but … she's not. ]
no subject
No.
[ her tone thick and watery. pain contorts her features then, striking suddenly. layers of it. on the first, that her uncertainty was only extended. there was no clear answer as to whether this was right or wrong of her. the second, that there was no clear reason for poe to be doing what he was doing if she was not in the wrong for it — she was not being punished. not righteously, certainly.
and third, that the only conclusion therein is that she remains, as ever, easily discarded. she wants to believe in some more substantial reason, some blame within herself, because it means that she had wronged poe in some way. that she meant something.
she presses her lips together, screwing up her expression to try and fight back the tears, but they come in one heaving sob that rattles her body. she does not want to leave this room. if she were still welcome in it, she would stay. if she were anything. but … she's not. ]