[It reminds me of your master is what does it. He cannot quite hold his unaffected posture until she is out of the room, but he makes a good go at it. The comparison to Snoke steals the guilty breath from his lungs -- it is only the lack of fitting in his now too-large tunic that hides the way his lungs shudder with acknowledgement of the truth.
He'd never wanted that -- to become like Snoke, to be Snoke, but it was no less true just because he refused to give it ample space in his mind. His relationship with his former master had been beneficial, but complicated. Too complicated, as he discovered too late. For all the affinity he felt for the Dark Side, his training with the former supreme leader -- it had changed him.
But that was the way it was, whether or not he liked it. Whether or not Rey liked it. It was the only way to keep the First Order running. It was the only way to keep Hux from spiraling out of control and coming down on the rest of the galaxy. He didn't expect her to understand that.
He sits down on the bed quietly without a verbal acknowledgement of what she has to say, but he takes the time to close his eyes and lean on the bond instead. If he couldn't watch with his eyes, then he'd at least make sure she wasn't doing anything he wouldn't approve of.]
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He'd never wanted that -- to become like Snoke, to be Snoke, but it was no less true just because he refused to give it ample space in his mind. His relationship with his former master had been beneficial, but complicated. Too complicated, as he discovered too late. For all the affinity he felt for the Dark Side, his training with the former supreme leader -- it had changed him.
But that was the way it was, whether or not he liked it. Whether or not Rey liked it. It was the only way to keep the First Order running. It was the only way to keep Hux from spiraling out of control and coming down on the rest of the galaxy. He didn't expect her to understand that.
He sits down on the bed quietly without a verbal acknowledgement of what she has to say, but he takes the time to close his eyes and lean on the bond instead. If he couldn't watch with his eyes, then he'd at least make sure she wasn't doing anything he wouldn't approve of.]