She wonders at it for a moment, picks at the feeling of his anxiety in the bond. She can feel his heart pounding out of sync with hers. Not an athletic rhythm—a fearful one. She kisses him again. This time, it's urgent, trying to salvage the calm, to assuage, this one is soft.
She chases it along his jaw. ]
I didn't want to. [ Refuse him, that is. It makes the whole thing sound very simple, even though it's not at all. He'd apologized. He'd declared an intention to do better without making excuses for himself. These things matter. ] I want you to hold onto me instead of your fear.
[ The honesty of it burns her. It gives him the power to turn away from her again, to be left behind. But he's promised her that she's important to him. Over and over again, he has tried to insist it. It is only fair she should let him prove it. ]
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She wonders at it for a moment, picks at the feeling of his anxiety in the bond. She can feel his heart pounding out of sync with hers. Not an athletic rhythm—a fearful one. She kisses him again. This time, it's urgent, trying to salvage the calm, to assuage, this one is soft.
She chases it along his jaw. ]
I didn't want to. [ Refuse him, that is. It makes the whole thing sound very simple, even though it's not at all. He'd apologized. He'd declared an intention to do better without making excuses for himself. These things matter. ] I want you to hold onto me instead of your fear.
[ The honesty of it burns her. It gives him the power to turn away from her again, to be left behind. But he's promised her that she's important to him. Over and over again, he has tried to insist it. It is only fair she should let him prove it. ]