Yes. I was doing what I thought was correct.

[What is he going to do, deny it? Even Kylo Ren is not so stupid.]

But when our minds touched -- it was the first time that I really...

[He is half babbling, so he is stuck digging for language to communicate the thoughts racing through his head.]

The first time I questioned. The first time I questioned since --

["Since I killed all of the Jedi" would probably ruin the moment, so he doesn't say it. The thought dies on his lips. He has to backpedal here.]

Our bond was not first formed by trust. Trust grew.

[It is an acknowledgement of what she is trying to tell him, thought he sounds somewhat defeated when he says it.]