[ Separating out the relief from the resentment gives her trouble. Even though it shouldn't, it still feels good to be enough. At least one person in this world values her enough to want to keep her company, and only her company. The little girl whose parents had left her on Jakku clings to that greedily. But he would alienate her from everyone else to get it, and the more that sinks in, the more deliberate his previous successes feel.
He is blocking her way off the bed. And speaking to him through the curtain feels somehow easier, so she doesn't move to disturb him. They have nowhere to go anyway. Her stomach is growling, but she seldom notices that. It is as familiar as breathing. ]
I was staying with Poe. [ He had never asked, and because it was no longer his business, she had never told him. Now she feels some spiteful reprieve in its necessity to the rest of her argument: ] He'll notice that I'm gone. He'll care. He won't let Hathaway leave without us.
[ Because Poe is a hero. A good person, like Ben tries to resist being. ]
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He is blocking her way off the bed. And speaking to him through the curtain feels somehow easier, so she doesn't move to disturb him. They have nowhere to go anyway. Her stomach is growling, but she seldom notices that. It is as familiar as breathing. ]
I was staying with Poe. [ He had never asked, and because it was no longer his business, she had never told him. Now she feels some spiteful reprieve in its necessity to the rest of her argument: ] He'll notice that I'm gone. He'll care. He won't let Hathaway leave without us.
[ Because Poe is a hero. A good person, like Ben tries to resist being. ]