[ When she wakes up, Rey's hand lies out in front of her, fingers stretched to the edge of the mattress. The edge of her pinky presses against the solid bulk beyond the curtain, which is warm and familiar. Her eyes blink open slowly, awareness coming in pieces until she gathers enough of her wits to jump slightly, recoiling and sitting up.
Shame descends immediately. Shoulders hunched, she wipes her mouth with her hand where sleep has caused spit to run down the side of her face. It covers her efforts to compose herself, hides it from even her own mind.
This is precisely the trouble of Ben Solo. In a life defined by absence, his presence is something she aches for, even when she knows it would not be enough. Rey breathes slowly through her nose to stay calm as it hits her: What if Kylo Ren is right, again? He had been on Hanabira, after all. His pessimism was not without a track record.
What if they don't meet up with Hathaway? What if they have already left? What if the two of them are stuck here in Drakstaden, alone, with no one else familiar to them? Would she try to make a life with other local natives who know nothing of her life and where she came from? Or would she let herself get sucked back into his orbit?
She can hear him breathing out there. On the other side of the curtain. Rey settles against the wall and quietly says without malice, ] This is what you wanted. [ They're alone now. Truly. No complications or competing allegiances to take her from him. ]
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Shame descends immediately. Shoulders hunched, she wipes her mouth with her hand where sleep has caused spit to run down the side of her face. It covers her efforts to compose herself, hides it from even her own mind.
This is precisely the trouble of Ben Solo. In a life defined by absence, his presence is something she aches for, even when she knows it would not be enough. Rey breathes slowly through her nose to stay calm as it hits her: What if Kylo Ren is right, again? He had been on Hanabira, after all. His pessimism was not without a track record.
What if they don't meet up with Hathaway? What if they have already left? What if the two of them are stuck here in Drakstaden, alone, with no one else familiar to them? Would she try to make a life with other local natives who know nothing of her life and where she came from? Or would she let herself get sucked back into his orbit?
She can hear him breathing out there. On the other side of the curtain. Rey settles against the wall and quietly says without malice, ] This is what you wanted. [ They're alone now. Truly. No complications or competing allegiances to take her from him. ]