[ There's a sick feeling in her stomach. Something like metal chips grinding in her stomach. She can't bring herself to look at him. This is what it feels like to want to apologize for something but to not have any frame of reference for that feeling or social behavior. She doesn't like his distress, but neither does she necessarily own responsibility for it.
So she's just left uneasy. ]
You should be glad. It makes you special. You're better than other people. I felt it when I met you.
[ These are all the things that Snoke had told her, and though she knows they ring somewhat hollow to the grief he is displaying, they are nonetheless true still to her beliefs. Having this power does make her exceptional. It is the only thing that she has that separates her from being a rat in a junkyard. It is what put her on Snoke's radar, which gave her power and purpose and saw her potential realized.
She hasn't decided what she's going to do about the necessity of casting it aside yet. She hasn't figured that out. But she knows that she still wants that power, that importance. And Ben should be grateful that he has it too. ]
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So she's just left uneasy. ]
You should be glad. It makes you special. You're better than other people. I felt it when I met you.
[ These are all the things that Snoke had told her, and though she knows they ring somewhat hollow to the grief he is displaying, they are nonetheless true still to her beliefs. Having this power does make her exceptional. It is the only thing that she has that separates her from being a rat in a junkyard. It is what put her on Snoke's radar, which gave her power and purpose and saw her potential realized.
She hasn't decided what she's going to do about the necessity of casting it aside yet. She hasn't figured that out. But she knows that she still wants that power, that importance. And Ben should be grateful that he has it too. ]